It’s a blessing to leave when you are tired.
Goodbye.
Strom King Art Center and the autumn leaves November 15, 2007
Mother Nature holds amazing healing powers.
I went to the Storm King Art Center with a friend last Sunday and despite all the stress from the last two weeks, I have not felt so relieved and so happy for a long time.
You can see some of the pictures from the photo album (Autumn is here).
It’s mesmerizing how nature’s colors change. You do not see it at all in the city. Forget about Central Park.
The leaves in the wild are soft despite that they are withering on the floor of the forest.
They have different shades of colors from
green, to mustard, yellow, peach, orange, red, burgundy purple, brick red, leather brown.
I walked the whole day on soft grass
-so soft you can roll down a grass slope without feeling it
and I don’t feel pain around my ankle or sole at all.
The air was fresh you don’t smell anything but the vegetation.
But even with all the leaves on the floor, there was no smell of decay.
We picniced at lunch where we shouldn’t (but we left no trace :P)
and the sun warmed my back while we ate a very simple and delicious meal.
It was simple and sheer joy.
The best thing is how you sometimes find the companionship of a new friend so refreshing.
I was lucky enough that during the last two weeks at the worst time of my stay so far in NY,
I have my very very good friend from high school,
and a new friend that I barely know that I get along very well
pulled me through some sad lonely moments.
The preciousness of a good old friend is the stamina of friendship through time,
and to be able to go through different stages of life together.
The miracle of a new friendship is the randomness of fate,
and how you can feel so comfortable around a stranger.
I guess despite all, I’m still a pretty lucky girl 😉
What wants to be at the very top? November 7, 2007
Long time ago I would never have thought that this question will pop up in my mind.
After 10 years of working and struggling to be on the top, I have recently come to a revelation that all I want is a simple life.
I love to be intrigued and inspired.
But it doesn’t equate to being at the top, always on the front, and constantly fighting a battle.
When everyone at their early 30s are thinking of climbing up the ladder, earning more money and making something big out of yourself,
I’m starting to wonder if I’m cut for a long term fight.
It could well go on for another 30 years.
Do I want that kind of pressure?
And along the way, you will lose time for your family, friends and most imptly, yourself.
How much time do I devote apart from work and everyone else, to myself and learning new things irrelevant to working?
If I cannot say with full confident after 2 years in NY that I did, and that I’ve experienced life fully,
then it’s time to rethink life and its priority.
Is it really a crime to not want to be at the very top?
Is it shallow to think I can be satisfied with being in the middle level management,
being mediocre?
Tired November 4, 2007
I can’t seem to pull my energy up since the trip to the vet. I just want to sit with my baby as much as I can.
He seems to have picked up some eating today after my encouragement and begging.
And he definitely loves the warm towels.
Anyways, can’t type much right now. I wish I have a comedy on TV right now to cheer me up.
Don’t even want to talk to anyone.
I just want to put everything back to normal.
Sigh…
Updates November 3, 2007
So finally, I’m back on my blog.
Things been a bit crazy recently. Mom came for a visit, then bf going on a trip and back and then back on another trip.
Got a major pitch going on at work. Got year-end closing coming up.
Then one of the bunnies is sick.
I just kept running around for nothing, it seems.
And this long awaited Sat came and I got a bad news about Toffee.
It’s just a bit tiring at this moment but I think I’ll appreciate this weekend on my own.
I need some time to take care of the two little cutie pies.
Do my bills, clean up the house and do some chores for myself.
Having some time to your own and do things and put your life back in order is very important.
It grounds you and when you slow down you can see how time flies.
Sad thing is for people who can’t notice how time flies but only how fast it does.
I hope next week would be slightly better for me though I have another planning week coming for one of my clients.
Nothing is more important than family and yourself.
Nikisha 